τολμητίας

2012-01-28T03:41:00.000+08:00

Gelak tawa hanya pengisian untuk hati yang telah tawar dengan. Cinta.

2012-01-27T02:44:00.000+08:00

Sendiri menempuhi hidup.

2012-01-27T02:43:00.001+08:00

Hati ini, tidak seperti dulu lagi.
Ia tidak berperisa, seperti dulu.
Ia tidak berperasaan, seperti dulu.
Ia tidak menangis, seperti dulu lagi.

My definition of chinese new year

2012-01-25T04:51:00.001+08:00

Today,I wished my grandfather (wai gong) happy chinese new year, and he smiled. The best chinese new year ever. I finally feel the love of a grandfather and a grandmother of mine. How my grandmother give her effort in searching halal food and crackers for me and family. And the warm welcome from my grandfather when he keep us filled with canned drinks, orange and crackers. I cant be like my other cousins who are closed to them, but i will always hoping that they accepted me as part of the family. How i wish i could be the young little girl that i used to be, and play,chit chatting with my cousin without worrying what races or what religion that we hold. And i can simply go to tai gong and tai yi house, pay them a visit and get angpau from them without via-ing other people. I just miss that. I hate my mandarin speaking level, and my disability in understanding hakka slang.

Still,no matter what,i love you guys.

2012-01-23T05:14:00.000+08:00

Kalaulah aku boleh wujudkan karekter dalam komik komik yang aku tengok, aku nak pilih Slay dari komik 2 dudes.

Kenapa? Sebab muka dia nampak jahat. Tapi hati dia baik. Dan dia kelakar. Semangat setiakawan dia yang tidak pernah luntur dan dia sangat kuat dari segi fizikal. Dia pandai bergaduh.

Cop. Oh tidak, aku dah jatuh cinta lagi.

2012-01-23T05:08:00.001+08:00

Goodbye my almost lover, my hopeless dream. The ring, its impossible for me to throw it away, i'll just keep it till the day i married.

Pemilihan cinta

2012-01-18T00:55:00.000+08:00

Duduk diam dan lihat saja.

2012-01-18T00:50:00.000+08:00

Cinta? Benda tu bebas. Kalau kau dah lepaskan nya pergi, kalau ianya milik kau, sampai Paris pun dia pergi, dia tetap akan pulang balik dekat kau.

Jadi baik aku duduk diam dan lihat saja. Jangan melawan, jangan menjawab.

Tips to clear your mind from love.

2012-01-17T02:33:00.002+08:00

Think creative, try doing some art craft or try paint something. Look around you, there maybe something that needs to be decorate, for example, your cupboard, notebook or maybe your old boring T-shirt.

I have tried it today,decorating my notebook, and I like it. It look new and young. And I feel so empty,release and I dont worrying about anything or anyone.

Feel free to try it,ladies.

2012-01-16T05:06:00.000+08:00

Love doesn't disappoint me,
It's me who disappoint love.

2012-01-15T03:17:00.003+08:00

The relationship not supposed to happen. because it gives heartbreak to both sides. I hate myself for being sad and sappy just because he can get over it that soon. Ya Allah, tabahkan lah hati ku.

2012-01-15T03:14:00.002+08:00

Having your shoulder is the best thing that ever happens to me. It's my fault for not appreciating that. Im sorry :'(

2011-12-19T08:59:00.001+08:00

Don't ever text me again and say you are sorry. Your words, always hurt me, until in some point, Im resistant.

Used to love you?

2011-12-19T08:48:00.000+08:00

Do i look materialistic to you? Funny. Oh lupa. Aku paksa dia beli bunga untuk aku. Yeap, im fucking love money. Especially your money. Sadly you can't afford me. Hahaha

Ini kan yang kau nak dengar?

2011-12-18T14:36:00.000+08:00

Sedangkan orang buta, orang pekak pun tahu nak lepaskan jika terluka, kenapa aku tak boleh?

2011-11-30T00:37:00.000+08:00

he truth of the matter is, I still have feelings for you. And no matter how many times I tell myself that I'm better off with out you, a part of me just won't let go.

2011-11-24T02:39:00.001+08:00

Take my photo off the wall
If it just won't sing for you.
'Cause all that's left has gone away
And there's nothing there for you to prove.

JET

2011-11-23T02:35:00.002+08:00

Aku tak rasa keikhlasan "I miss you" itu dekat mana.

2011-11-23T02:33:00.001+08:00

Second day.
Another lies.
Lets just pretend I believed.
It's okay :)

Miley Cyrus- Stay :'[

2011-11-22T02:10:00.000+08:00

Well it's good to hear your voice
I hope your doing fine
And if you ever wonder,
I'm lonely here tonight
Lost here in this moment and time keeps slipping by
And if I could have just one wish
I'd have you by my side

Oooh, oh I miss you
Oooh, oh I need you

And I love you more than I did before
And if today I don't see your face
Nothing's changed, no one can take your place
It gets harder everyday

Say you love me more than you did before
And I'm sorry it's this way
But I'm coming home, I'll be coming home
And if you ask me I will stay, I will stay

Well I try to live without you
The tears fall from my eyes
I'm alone and I feel empty
God I'm torn apart inside

I look up at the stars
Hoping your doing the same
Somehow I feel closer and I can hear you say

Oooh, oh I miss you
Oooh, oh I need you

And I love you more than I did before
And if today I don't see your face
Nothing's changed, no one can take your place
It gets harder everyday

Say you love me more than you did before
And I'm sorry that it's this way
But I'm coming home, I'll be coming home
And if you ask me I will stay, I will stay
Always stay

I never wanna lose you
And if I had to I would choose you
So stay, please always stay
You're the one that I hold onto
'Cause my heart would stop without you

And I love you more than I did before
And if today I don't see your face
Nothing's changed no one can take your place
It gets harder everyday

Say you love me more than you did before
And I'm sorry that it's this way
But I'm coming home, I'll be coming home
And if you ask me I will stay, I will stay
I'll always stay

And I love you more than I did before
And I'm sorry that it's this way
But I'm coming home I'll be coming home
And if you ask I will stay, I will stay
I will stay

2011-11-22T01:23:00.000+08:00

You lied to me. How stupid i am for trusting you wholeheartedly.

2011-11-19T04:38:00.000+08:00

you deleted your blog. Its okay. I faham. I minta maaf, still, i cant get you off my mind.

2011-11-18T13:01:00.001+08:00

i dreamed of you yesterday. You texted me using your friend's phone.you asked me to come over your house.when i arrived there,you were not there.only your friend.he says you going out for a while, so i wait. And then you came home,with a girl in your arm. She is someone that i knew. Short hair. And i think we started a fight. And the reason you bring her over is to see me and her fighting but i chose to leave. I was crying so hard on my way back and ila suddenly there. She hugged me. And eventually i stopped crying. After that,i went to kitchen,and start cooking something with ila asking what happened just now. And i dont know why i packed you the soup that i made. On my way to your house,suddenly i remembered that i forgot to put salts and sugar in the soup. I dropped by a warung and want to ask them some salt. Suddenly, you are there and you said 'jom,tengok kalau kita boleh figured out mcm mana'

then i smiled. And i woke up.
I want to dream you again,please.

2011-11-17T23:07:00.000+08:00

Sometimes you cried so hard to yourself and asked,why you did such a move or why would this happen to me. Well,in behind that, there is always a reason. For example, today you lost your wallet at the mamak store. You are so angry, but to think of it, it's actually a reminder to yourself, to be more cautious and alert of your belongings. A lesson to learnt.

Don't push your heart too hard,let it free.

2011-11-03T03:18:00.002+08:00

Thinking of you- Katy Perry suits me.

2011-11-03T03:12:00.002+08:00

Susah sangat bila everything yang he do, I tend to compare with the previous one. It is unfair, I know. Habits, I guess. Aku tahu setiap orang lain cara nya, lain perangai nya, lain pemikiran nya. Mungkin masih baru. Mungkin.

2011-10-13T21:22:00.000+08:00

Be brave, young hearts.

2011-10-13T21:21:00.000+08:00

Flower and sweater :')

2011-10-13T20:55:00.002+08:00

I should be get going and leave. Maybe now. now. now. or never. You never seems to care now. So I should be get going. again. for 123456789876543324234 times. again.

2011-10-12T09:39:00.001+08:00

Sharping my pencil so badly this few days, hoping that I would done well in upcoming examination. Good luck, Dian.

2011-10-12T09:34:00.003+08:00

My heart badly injured yesterday. The doctor said I might not get a chance to fully recover it as normal again even though I managed to resuscitate it yesterday. It has scars, bruises, some hole. It look disgustingly ugly. This absolutely worried me. Should I use make ups to cover all the lesions? Or have a surgery? Or die young?

2011-10-12T09:32:00.002+08:00

And the day where you realize the truth about us, you'll probably regret treating me badly. But until that day, I'll keep my silence.

#5

2011-10-10T22:43:00.001+08:00

Walking along seaside with his smile on my mind

#4

2011-10-10T22:42:00.000+08:00

Went to pasar malam and holding hands and complaints here and there

#3

2011-10-06T03:24:00.002+08:00

Have a walk at the park.

#2

2011-10-06T03:24:00.001+08:00

Wipe her tears with bare hands.

#1

2011-10-06T03:23:00.000+08:00

Watching movies and holding hands.

2011-10-06T03:21:00.001+08:00

Am.

Currently.

Having.

Emotional.

Distress.

So.

Don't.

Ask.

Me.

If.

Cried.

So.

Insecurely.

In.

Bed.

2011-10-06T03:17:00.003+08:00

Bagaimana,jika,aku mempunyai dua hati. Urm, maksud aku, aku mempunyai satu hati yang berkongsi dua rasa.

It is illegal, isnt it?

To rent a heart to others when it is already been rented by someone.

Manusia suka lakukan perkara yang dilarang.

2011-10-06T03:15:00.001+08:00

Love:

What good it brings if it suffers the one who experience it?

T

2011-10-04T23:31:00.000+08:00

Snow patrol- Run, this song is for you.

2011-10-04T23:23:00.000+08:00

If time is all I have, I waste it all on you :'(

2011-09-29T00:05:00.005+08:00

You texted me today :') Only god knows how I feel. But I don't have the courage to reply it. Because Im scared I will only break your heart and make you hated me more than before. I never wanted us to be strangers like this. We are miles away but... still, every night, I cherish our memories.

Maybe tonight I will be crying to sleep.Again.

2011-09-27T20:20:00.002+08:00

On the superficial, maybe I look happy and strong but who knows what happens inside? My mind is battling with my heart. My mind disapproves what my heart wants. My mind disagree everything that my heart do. When my heart loses its battle, it gives me pain.

I never stopped loving you.

I just stopped showing it.

2011-09-27T19:29:00.000+08:00

I miss you too.

2011-09-04T03:07:00.002+08:00

Suffer is not a fate. It is a choice. You can choose to suffer or pick the other way. Choice is yours.

Hari membakar lemang.

2011-09-04T02:59:00.003+08:00

Pada hujung minggu yang lalu, saya pulang ke kampung mengikut ayah dan ibu saya. Saya sangat gembira kerana tahun ini saya puasa penuh dan siaplah atuk dan makcik saya nanti, saya nak pau banyak banyak duit raya daripada mereka. Setibanya di tempat kejadian, saya terkejut melihat atuk saya telah menyembelihkan 3 ekor ayam yang innocent. Saya berasa marah dengan atuk. Tetapi sekejab sahaja marah saya hilang apabila saya mendapati bahawa ayam itu akan dimasak dan menjadi kari ayam (kegemaran saya) . Sayang atuk. XOXO. Seterusnya saya tolong ibu dan saudara mara memasukkan beras ke dalam lemang. Stres saya membuatnya kerana ibu dah siap 3 batang manakala saya separuh pun belum habis. Apabila lemang lemang itu dibakar, saya merasa kesian kerana saya terbayang bayang kan buluh lemang tersebut menjerit dalam kesakitan kerana bara api itu terlalu besar, dan kuat. Takut saya. Tapi sekejab sahaja takut saya hilang apabila lemang itu telah siap dimasak. Lalu saya tanpa segan silu dan berfikir panjang menyuapkan lemang itu ke dalam mulut. Uih sedap nya lemang ni. Pandai saya memasukkan beras ke dalam nya, menjadiii.

Tiba tiba ibu mengamuk. Lalu berkata. HEY RAYA ESOK HARI NI PUASA LAGI LA. LAMBAT LAGI NAK BUKA PUASA NIII, APA PASAL KAU TELAN LEMANG NI HAAAAAAAAAA

Saya beristighfar dalam hati.